Dusty broken glass and me.

 

A bit about me:

Somewhere on this planet there are folks more capable than I at understanding and communicating with the 10-year old mind of
a boy.  I splash around a little in the conversation but I am doing little more than creating a distraction in hopes of a life preserver being tossed.  Over the weekend thatguyilivewith and I had a two on one ride to town with Eli.  This wasn’t weird but we do typically have Eli and younger grandson Cash as a matched set.  It was only a 25-minute drive into town to pick up some take out for Family Friday Fajita night but it was a universal conversation. 

If you have a 5^th grader in your life my best advice to you is to avoid the topic of the Solar System unless you want to interview the planets, the sun, the moon and whatever Pluto has been demoted to since I was in the 5^th grade.  FYI: Mercury is from the outback of Australia and Uranus is the butt of many jokes, pun intended. 

I realized as I attempted to formulate meaningful questions about each planet, that I lacked some base knowledge about planets.  The starting point was pretty low.  I know that some have moons and rings, some are different colors, and that earth is the cute one. 

So being the me-centric, ego maniac that my resume speaks so highly of, I decided to give you, my loyal and few readers, the bullet point version of me; Dawn101: The Basics of otherwise useless information that would best prepare anyone to interview me. 

1.     
Don’t touch my head or my hair.  This is by far the fastest way to be voted off my planet.  I will not attempt to explain why or when it started but don’t; just don’t. I remember as a kid that one of my favorite people, Dean, could not stand to have anyone touch her knees.  Being that brat, I saw this as a challenge to touch her knees.  Please do not see this as a challenge to touch my head or my hair.  Unlike Dean, I will not make a game of it.

2.       As a child or a young adult, I would collect glasses. Drinking glasses, shot glasses, mugs.  This weekend while doing a little spring cleaning in the shop thatguyilivewith noted a box of my collectables.  I didn’t open it and reminisce through the newspaper wrapped breakables but I came in the house to find the one glass that matters to me now.  Yes,  there it was behind the Coke glasses and A&W Rootbeer mug from the 1970’s, behind the jelly jar I was supposed to return to mother for a refill, behind the Kentucky Derby souvenir glass, the McDonalds glass coffee mug, and the bunny rabbit salt and pepper shakers that need to be loaded and used for the Easter season.  There it was with the broken shard still laying in the bottom of the glass covered with dust. It’s a small drinking glass wrapped with white flowers that would vanish if the glass were filled with milk but jump visibly into your hand if filled with sweet tea. Maybe I should have thrown it away years ago but it is very important to me.  It was a gift.

 

Here is how it went down:  It was in December at my birthday party. I had a few friends over to spend the night and gang up on one another as girls do.  I don’t remember the year but I would guess I was close to 13 years old because I think that is when girls are the meanest; I could be wrong on both counts.  My friends were gathered around the bar in the kitchen with me and my mom and my grandmother who lived with us.  Others may have been there but I honestly cannot remember and it doesn’t really impact the story.  I don’t remember any gifts that I received that year besides the drinking glass.  It was a gift from my grandmother. 

 

All of my cousins and my sister called her Granny but I called her Grandmother.  We had a special connection that I think all kids should have with a grandparent. I was the baby in the family, I lived in the room next to hers, I was a pest.  Any of these could be why I considered myself to be her favorite. It is irrelevant how she ranked me. 

The glass came from the Libbey glass factory in Shreveport which to grown me is really a cool place but even as a drinkware collector it was not cool to my teenage self.  There in front of all my friends I unwrapped a regular kitchen drinking glass.  I don’t remember what I said or if I said anything at all but I remembered being embarrassed and I somewhat remember hurting Grandmother’s feelings.  She bought me a collectible and I didn’t have the sense to see it.

 

3.       My growing, laughing, traveling and not perfect family.  I married thatguyilivewith in the summer of 1988.  We were children by most standards.  Together we have raised three beautiful boys into men who respect and love and give in many areas of their lives.  We have two daughter-in- laws who could not be more different from one another but shoulder up like sisters in our family.  Parenthetically, I am in the market for one more daughter in law.  I have nearly unattainable standards but I am accepting nominations.  We have five rowdy grandkids that I consider to be the tiara I received for not abandoning my own children.  Lastly, I must add that I am one of the blessed among women my age to still have my mother in my world.  She's beyond my use of adjectives. 

Where do you buy a camel?

 

I’m a dog person myself but maybe because I’ve never had a camel.  

Do you ever look at someone and think ‘how did he/she get there?’ Example:  I was invited to attend a circus production earlier this week with my oldest son, daughter in law and grandkids.  We watched intently as the performers tossed hoops and rings.  They spun tables and metal geometrical shapes.  They twirled and balanced and danced for our viewing pleasure among machine generated fog and flashing lights.  They bounced and biked and even clowned for our applause for nearly two hours.  They were a very diverse group of performers; men, women, children, old, young, thick, thin, and a variety of hair colors.  The apparent lead of the show was a somewhat younger man with coal black hair that was long on the top but shaved on the sides.  He may have been of Latino heritage but I really could not say for certain and I don’t see that it adds any depth to this blog. Though I cannot put my finger on exactly why I think he was in charge, his level of engagement was definitively higher.  So, how did he get into the circus game?  Did he runaway and join the circus in high school?  Did he aspire to be a three-ring performer since grade school? 

Circus performers are not the only career choices I have given an unnecessary amount of thought. I think I have mentioned this before but Olympic Lugers have puzzled me for years.  In my limited experience those who grow up to be Olympic competitors start very young.  An Olympic gymnast starts pointing her toes soon after she learns to use the big girl potty.  A professional infielder didn’t get his first glove in high school and a vocalist didn’t do her first mic test at the Apollo Theater.  How do you get to be a champion luger?  Is there a little league for luging? What is the first step?  More importantly how does a young person know to chase the downhill dream of luging? 

So, today as I was driving across the north central Texas region I passed a large yard at the edge of the highway with a tall fence.  Behind the fence only feet from the road I could see two camels.  One laying down and the other standing. They were both chewing.  I don’t know if they were large camels or just normal sized camels.  They were a reddish-brown color; not the camel color that I would have predicted.  It’s Texas.  We have livestock.  We have horses, cows, pigs and all the typical farm animals plus an occasional llama or ostrich.  I have seen zebra and exotic deer and antelope here and there.  This is not the first time I have seen a camel.  I have been to the zoo for goodness sake.  I think it’s the first time that I have seen one behind a fence in a big yard on the side of a Texas farm road.  Was it a pet?  Or livestock? Is it too much to wonder how you would come to own a matching pair of camels?  I realize that I am only showing my ignorance and I could google this but where do you buy a camel? Where do you buy camel food?  Does Purina make Camel Chow?  Do they loan them out for live nativity scenes around Christmas?

Do you bow up or bow out?

 

Fight or flight?

I can only imagine the number of blog entries and google searches pertaining the caveman instinct of fight or flight.  I probably should have researched this overquoted stress response prior to declaring myself informed enough to post a blog but I did not.  I chose not to become the hyper-informed Googler on this topic because I simply want to make application to the level I currently understand and not complicate my opinion with clinical facts.  This is a blog, after all, not www.webmd.com. 

The question is not ‘do you fight or flee?’.  What I really want to know is what route you take when you run? 

In animation a strong squeeze to the adrenal gland might trigger flaming red face, steam blowing from the ears, or feet running in thin air. I was not looking in the mirror last time my hormones topped out so I may have been red faced and steamy eared but I was not physically in motion.  In my head and possibly my heart, I was circling the world like a rocket ship or perhaps a balloon that was inflated and then released to blow spit like a fire hose.  Either way, I was very much running.

What sets me into flight may not trigger a response from you at all but yesterday I was caught metaphorically with my skirt tucked into my pantyhose.  You know that feeling?  All dressed up and feeling the power.  Briefcase in one hand, latte in the other.  For those of you that didn’t follow the dressed-up-briefcase-carrying-latte-drinking symbolism, imagine you look like Jackie O until you pass a mirror to see Lucy Ball looking back at you.  Don’t hate.  No one is more of a Lucy fan than me and Ethel.  However, my attitude was in drag thinking Jackie but my actions were Lucy in pantyhose so I looked for the open door.  I was run ready.  Release the spit balloon.

I did not physically run, leave or even fake a seizure.  I closed my computer.  I poured a cup of coffee.  I sat in my recliner.  I watched the wind chime wiggle in the breeze.  I updated my resume.  I sipped my coffee. I reread my most current resignation letter. I opened www.Indeed.com.

The lesson here:

Whether you bow up or bow out recognize your actions, own it, and know it comes at a cost. For me, a strategically placed speed bump will keep me from getting too far, tripping on my shoe laces, or carrying around too many regrets.

Can you Google your way through an American Ninja Warrior Course?

 P is for Prosciutto

We gather as a family after church every Sunday for lunch.  I always look forward to the recaps from the week, the inside jabs, and the candor of conversations as everyone filters into the kitchen.  This past Sunday as Angel and his boys came in he pointed across the table at a meat tray and said, “Eli, that’s Prosciutto.”  Most of us stopped what we were doing and waited for the explanation of this rather random declaration.  Angel explained that on the way to church they were playing a game by going through the alphabet naming a food that starts with each letter. A is for apple, B is for bread, P is for prosciutto. 

The conversation opened my memory like a time capsule to the games we played as we rumbled the national and state highways in the 1970’s.  Remember Slug Bug, a fun little bruise producing game?  We played I Spy, and many games that involved billboards and license plates and cows and graveyards and railroad tracks.  It’s amazing what we did to entertain ourselves prior to having personal handheld reach to the world wide web.  Sometimes we had to have conversations or sing songs uphill both ways in the snow. 

You have likely told someone in the last thirty days to put the phone down for a second, screen time is over, or be present only to find yourself jumping from Facebook to Google to Amazon to Zillow like an American Ninja Warrior.  I cannot be the only one on both sides for this problem.   I am the problem and I am the solution.  Somedays I am the villain and other days I am the victim.  We have outsmarted our own culture.  

The worst is in the car.  We should be playing silly word games and counting cows.  I am not making light of the dangers of texting and driving, but googling in the passenger seat comes at a cost too.  I pick up the phone to Google one little random thought or piece of nonsense, and then realize I have left the car entirely.  In a matter of miles, I have clicked from “chartering a jet to Hawaii” to “home of the sod poodles”. See picture below.   We are plugged into the trivia, knowledge and pseudo wisdom of this world and beyond but disconnected from those buckled in beside us. 

Challenge: look out the window and count cows, drive by my house and slug someone in the biceps, or play food games but remember P is for Pizza.